RECAP: So, last year, I did a 100 fitness challenge where I worked out and dieted every day for 100 days. I lost 38 pounds and made it to 98 days when I was bitten by a cat and had to go to have surgery. I spent four days in the hospital and fell in to debt (even though I carried full insurance.) Afterwards, went in to a major depression. This was last September. I am finally feel like strong enough to try again. After this post, I will update every third day.
So the weight in. (Sighs). Well I guess good news and bad news. The Bad News is after 10 months of neglect, I have gained every pound I lost. I am back at 350 pounds. Last summer it was the heaviest I had ever weighed. Again, I am back where i started with another year lost. Alright, that’s depressing let’s fast forward to the good news. I did’t put on more than when I started originally. (Hey, I got to get a victory anywhere I can at this point)
It would be real easy to just get overwhelmed at this point, but I really have no choice but to do this. How can I be the “Globetrotting grandpa” when i can’t even buckle the belt on an airline seat? I’m really not a sedentary person. I love to explore. I need a healthy body in order to do this. I really just can’t think too much about where I am right now. It is too easy for me to implode.
I heard a song on the radio today. It’s called “Lemon” by U2. There’s a line in the song that really resonated with me. (I admit I’ve heard it many times before but it never really sunk in until now.) “Midnight is when the day begins”. 11:59PM looks exactly the same 12:01AM. But they are a day apart. (And on New Years Eve they are a year apart) . So I will just have to accept the night (for now).
PS to anyone who is reading this: Thank You. You don’t have to comment or even like if you don’t want to, but thank you for reading this. I need a place (and hopefully people) to be to report to. I also need to be accountable to myself too.
Tomorrow, (actually today since it is after midnight) I am going to try to get some exercise. Hopefully swimming if I can fit it in before work, or I’ll go for a walk after work either way, I want to do something. I’ll post another update on this coming Monday. I am ready to do this again. It’s a new day. And this time no cat is going to stop me………….I hope